crazy...

damn it.. this past 2 weeks have been so packed with meetings.. not that i want it. and i am not complaining about it. but 3do is just 2 days away.. oh my god. my mind is in a total mess right now.. its 12.56 am and i need to wake up at 6 am coz its IHP day again. Widely awake now.. lots of issues running through my mind. schedule have been very very very tight this few weeks.. running in a endless marathon, drown under a pool meetings. good thing is that i don't have that awful breatheless chest pain.. but been hit by a series of gastric problems. argh!

NP Band.. the concert seems so blur to me. have never attended regular practice. i know people will question my disappearance AGAIN! but am i still in for the concert?i myself also rather blur about this issue. sheehs...

IHP.. only do up to user interface. looks like more modifications to be done to the interface.. finally took a peek at the iPark system yesterday. looks bloody complex.. total lost on my project now.. the path ahead AGAIN seems blur...

Piano... have yet to attend any lesson this month. have yet to have regular practices that will irritated the hell out of my neighbour which kindly enough yet to complain or they can't hear my awfully loud banging of the piano? exam is coming.. am i prepared? hmm.... terribly not! geez... the path ahead is blur...

Other issues.. should i drop the whole idea of that "thing"? or should i still continue to strike when the iron is still hot? should i put everything on hold till my mind is more clear and objective about things.. what are the objective of my life now? always been an objective person, but seems no more.. lost lost lost lost lost lost lost.. nothing is clear nothing is definite everything is nothing...

OH! I BETTER SHUT UP! argh! think i better go and sleep now! tomorrow won't be a better day. sheehs..!

finding myself in the big big ocean

Auf Wiendersehen!