i am as strong as the weakest link

been very down lately. things are not as they are used to be.

visited a close relative at the hospital. i shall not mention names. very sad at how his condition worsened, totally lost for words when i saw him la. haiz... but he is more optimistic about his recovery and i pray to god for his speedy recovery. he wants to have a beer drinking session next week with my dad man! =) when we wanted to leave, he stopped us, wants to watch EPL with my dad, but its friday and yet he is too weak to realise its friday. haiz... well, we did stay a little longer keeping him company and give all the moral support we can.

the fight with the illness has been more than a year already, and still why can't the virus jus surrended and admit to defeat. urgh..! can i jus go in and fight them off? i jus wish i can do something. feel hopeless when i can't help.

Am i strong mentally? I asked myself. During exercises where it runs throughout the night conquring the most difficult terrain, lack of sleep. i always tell myself to stay away and never fall out. Climbing up Biang, i tell myself i must get up there at all cost. No doubt its takes alot of physcial strength to overcome it. but mostly its all up there in the brain. so am i strong in the end?

I am as strong as the weakest link

Auf Wiedersehen!

disorganise

never update for awhile already. life's been ok ok in camp. National day was well.. spent away from home. so the next day was at NTU watching SSO's campus concert. hmm... i enjoyed it quite a lot. actually, been drowning myself with lots of symphonies and concertos la, hear too much of R&B in camp already. Although i try hard, but couldn't appreciate that genre. =)

Hmm.. I am missing my horn man, after listening to SSO lo. But then, the horn tone was not the idea tone that i am aiming to achieve. it feels great to be able to play like them one day lo. hope it comes soon enough. I WANT A HORN! hehe..

Okay, Sunday's violin masterclass is totally screwed up. First was the ticketing, i felt the salesperson could have took the initiative to ask what kind of tickets i am want to purchase since there was tickets for individual classes and a seasonal pass which entitles entry to all classes la. So, when i mention that i want to get the individual tickets, obviously next is to ask which classes instead of putting me off by telling me that tickets are sold 30mins before start of class. Bad start to the masterclass. Next was a printing error, which i doubt so, i suspect they change the venue and well... without informing people. there wasn't any signage to indicate anything.

So! the masterclasses that i attend is to whereby the organisers specially invite students to perform while a prof would then advise, suggest and teach the students infront of a group of audience on the particular topic its conducting. Haha, this masterclass is sort of a walk in clinic for musicians. well, at least the prof was able to conduct some impromtu lesson on violin techniques la. At least i walk away with my questions answered. phew..!

Weather at night was screwed up, raining cats and dogs at NTU, so for the fear that i will be late, i took cab to camp, ended my camp was freaking dry and i am super early. Conceed defeat to murphy's law, i book in lo, about 2 hours early. haiz... oh nvm.. I love the army.

past 5 days was training to prepare for Army Open house. We are in-charge of the LAN gaming so what we did was to play games and play more games. haha! actually i falling sick soon from playing games. have this puking and coughing sensation as i play. perhaps not used to the quick motion generated from the games. well.. more prep to come until the actual day. I don't have the exact details of the open house. so for those who are interested to come, pls find out yourself from adverts la. okay!

Auf Wiedersehen!

Jigsaw Puzzle

u know, i actually started on doing a jigsaw puzzle. hmmm.. amaze at how fast i actually manage to get it piece together. i didn't have the confidence to finish it when i first started it. well that's because i don't always fix one. about one in a decade perhaps.

i find it amazing at how the jigsaw puzzle are piece together. constantly working out the odds of getting the right piece at the right place. think about it, jigsaw puzzle is just like life, sometimes it just manage piece it right the first time, sometimes it takes a little twist and turn around to fit in to the pieces beside it, and most of the time you won't even know where that piece you picked up from the box belongs to too until another piece tells you so.

i know it seems out of place to write this entry, but just too many things are happening recently and my mind seems pretty messed up. well... end of the day, the most important thing it to be happy and contented with what you have. =)

Auf Wiedersehen!