i am as strong as the weakest link

been very down lately. things are not as they are used to be.

visited a close relative at the hospital. i shall not mention names. very sad at how his condition worsened, totally lost for words when i saw him la. haiz... but he is more optimistic about his recovery and i pray to god for his speedy recovery. he wants to have a beer drinking session next week with my dad man! =) when we wanted to leave, he stopped us, wants to watch EPL with my dad, but its friday and yet he is too weak to realise its friday. haiz... well, we did stay a little longer keeping him company and give all the moral support we can.

the fight with the illness has been more than a year already, and still why can't the virus jus surrended and admit to defeat. urgh..! can i jus go in and fight them off? i jus wish i can do something. feel hopeless when i can't help.

Am i strong mentally? I asked myself. During exercises where it runs throughout the night conquring the most difficult terrain, lack of sleep. i always tell myself to stay away and never fall out. Climbing up Biang, i tell myself i must get up there at all cost. No doubt its takes alot of physcial strength to overcome it. but mostly its all up there in the brain. so am i strong in the end?

I am as strong as the weakest link

Auf Wiedersehen!