doom's day

The past three days was very terrible for me. Something happen unexpectedly and it just took me by surprise.This period of time have been very difficult and depressing for me, hopefully the upcoming trip overseas will somehow cheer me up again. It is sad that i will be able to explain to my friends what happen. And they can never understand the difficulties i gone through. I want to take this time to apologise to people that i have offended. I am also utterly disappointed that my friends can never understand the tough time that is now currently going on, especially someone i hold dear to my heart.

To my section members: I really feel gulity for not attend this camp and also being irresponsible for not informing you guys when u all call and msg me. I just kept mentioning in the phone call and sms that i will come. But I really have personal matters to attend to. I really hope i can let you all know what happened but its to personal to mention it out. I sincerely apologise to you all.

God, please brighten up my day.

Results are out

yea! finally the results are out. that marks the end of days pondering how i do for this semester's modules. i know i have not been performing well this semester but phew.. close shave for certain modules..... didn't expect any A's in the first place, but well i still end up with one. A B C D achieve it all!!! =)

don't know if its a coincidence, mentor called me about 15 mins after the resutls are out. Lolz.. anyway its jus regarding a camp at NUS i think. but i couldn't attend it, falls within the period i am away. anyway, suggested some of my classmates that i think should go. overall, i don't think anyone of them will go. disappointed....

nickszeto poofing out!
*poofed*

Eros and Agape

how long? very long..... yup its been a long time since my last entry. lazy i guess, all that sitting around the house is turning to a replica of GARFIELD!! love that fat cat.. meow!

What's have been going on so far? hmmm... guess this hols have be dedicated to music. Band, French horn and Piano. other than that, just looking forward to my trip. Yippee! well.... at least 2 more weeks to go before i leave.

Recently i found out how cute and loving my grandparents are. hearing my grandmother telling me how they tease each other sometimes when they go out. Lolz.. that's what 50 years of marriage comes down to, love and respect for each other. something which make me sit back and think...

Eros or Agape?

yawns....

wow.. its been a long time since my last entry haha.. slacking all the while except for last tuesday, where i had a very interesting experience in the operating theatre. after some injections and ................

haha.. i just came out with a very interesting music analysis of Movement II of The wind in the Willow title Ratty and the Mole. haha... Ratty should be played in the way that the main melody of the song sounds like the busy rats, i mean country rats not the urban rats. running in and out of the barrow in the search for food and stuffs.. if i would replace the melody with words, it should goes: "Hurry hurry, let's go... we have not much time!" As for Mole, i believe mole have a very close family bond between them if i recall properly from the animal documentary i watch before, so the main melody carried by the horns should present the warm and close family bonding they have. haha.. Overall, this movement should show the contrast of a very busy animal who is always on the hurry and a very slow and ease going animal with warm feeling. Just my 2 cent worth.

well... i am off to combine band prac with SMB and Alumni. They are going to rehearse for the upcoming sentosa performance where i will not be in because i will be going overseas!!! yeah!!! anyway, making lots of sacrifice, giving up sentosa performance, leadership camp and band exchange for this trip. hopefully it worthwhile and i believe it will be otherwise i fly back!!! haha...

bored stiff

what am i doing? oh yah, locking myself up in the room now. why? coz my bro's friends are here, they are also locking up in my bro's room. Don't know what the hell they doing. But better keep their volume down! muahahahaha!!!

Just had a meeting yesterday, regarding ICT society, there will be a leadership training camp coming up, begining of Dec i hope. trying to push back to begining of Dec. ICT will be having a christmas bash coming up also, 17 dec at convention center. A ICT first and big event, let's see how this committee works! hahaa.. look to the right for more events!

one more paper to go.. this saturday. looking forward to it.. then i will go back to alumni and play to my heart's content before i go for my op. sickening, i have stop playing for about 2 weeks? so NP, Alumni band ppl, see u guys around mid Nov! or perhaps slightly earlier. shall see my condition. unless i beg real hard to my dentist. Please........

I think i understand what i fear about this operation, its not the jab or the extraction part, used to it already but just the slight cut the surgeon have to make on my gum. imagine a scapel in my mouth. okay i know, back in sec school days i used to play around with it during biology lesson, but i am just cutting up tomatoes, please don't cut me up! i am not a tomato!!! hump! see whether the surgeon is skillful enough to extract it without making any cuts anot! hahahaaa....

in my opinion, DENTIST ARE STILL EVIL!!!

God Bless!

halfway there...

halfway there now... 2 more papers and that the end of this semester. how did i do till now...? rather discouraging. well i think i am all prep up to conquer the next paper amist all the loud banging and music from the block next to mine. its something i won't want to mention.

yes! finally i got my dream camera, after so long, took it for a test run but can't wait to test run it again, itching to finish up the current roll of film. haha... thanks alot to the seller, sweet lady. there is a great opportunity last friday, when i tag along with my family to kusu island. huh? what am i doing there? just go there for fun of it when i could use the time to prepare for the next paper on saturday. hahaa... could not resist the temptation. as i said, i could have brought my camera there to snap some nice landscape shots but, haha, just didn't bring the camera.

the trip there... oh gosh, the ferry we took was crawling its way there. just missed the faster vessal that usually ply along the SIN-Batam route. but manage to catch that vessal on the return trip. Its kind of funny, on the return trip, i just sat there in the comfy seat and look out at the skyline of SIN and somehow, i felt so relax.

oh well, my two buddies, haha, celebrated my birthday 6 days late. hahaha! something that i really didn't expect to happen. jus a normal chilling out afternoon, went to SWO to take parts for the upcoming concert then dinner. Totally surprise for what they have done. that's what buddies are for!

Thanks bros...

pain & fun

i just can't stop thinking about the wisdom tooth operation that i will be going for, it ain't any fun letting a dentist pulling your teeth even though i have done it before, but i still have the fear for it. can i not pull? tough decision, it has it advantage but is it long term or short, wonders...
there is so much fun activities lining up for the next three months or so, can't wait for these activities to come but the operation still come in line first. haiz.. spoil all the fun thoughts that i have. really hate to have such misery feeling but i still have to go thru it, i am willing to be suffering for exams as i know i can bring myself joy at the end when results are release, but my tooth... sighs... dentist are evil, either they scale and polish your teeth till you cry in pain or sent you for tooth extraction like nobody's business.

3 events coming up after the tooth op, band exchange where i will be conducting music workshop, possible leadership camp by ICT in malaysia i think and posible korea trip. all falling at the same period of time, LoLz.. don't know how things will work out, nearer to that week then work it out again. hopefully the korea trip will happen and be back before the exchange so that i can fly back in time to conduct the workshop.

Dentist are still evil!

Birthday Bash

Well well.... my birthday is here again, getting old already.. LoLz.. nothing much to elaborate about, just a simple dinner with all my uncles and aunt and of course not forgetting the small kids.. oh yah, its my uncle's birthday too, we celebrate our birthday together every year. haha... cool aite? as always, the kids are the one's who blow out the candles and cut the cake. its become a "tradition" for all birthdays. oh well... they are kids, cute ones..

I Have A Dream

I Have a Dream,

A Song to Sing,

To Help me cope,

With Anything.

what dreams do I have? A dream to enjoy life as happy as possible and share the joy with everybody and the person that will be dearest to me. LoLz... yup that's my dream, simple aite? well that's me! currently enjoying the MAMA MIA! album that i bought this afternoon, realising that ABBA songs are quite meaning full in some ways. like it alot...

alright, this is reality, just finish my MAD Assignment, worked thru the night till 4 am, where the birds are chipping to the daybreak as i hit the sack, funny rite.. why rush last minute, thanks to my partner, long story.. my tutor will justify the work. 2 weeks work cramp into a night, something that i will never forget. but still proud of myself, as i could complete such a major assignment, well 90% by myself. *Taps on my back* LoLz...

oh yea, just another sunday, out of the house and hang around town, suppose to attend a youth rally, but, hahaha... Laziness rulez.. so walk around town, and watch the change of guards at the Istana, and saw something that totally disgust me. if i could, i would have told her off in the middle of orchard road, not that its something i am incapable of doing, but i think she does not deserve my dressing down. well... let it be.

Over all, still a fun and enjoyable day.... and i still have a dream. The dream of have sweet dreams every night, going to accomplish that now. Ciaoz!

MAMA MIA!

went to church today, but i overslept so was late, well its okay la... haha!! after church, Joel and i were trying to get a ticket to mama mia for me, rush down to esplanade to book. initially, expect the tix to be hundred over, the last 2 seat available, but to our surprise as a student i got it at half the price and the seat that i got is wonderful, what more can i request for. Wow! anyway, went for lunch and watch the show.

the show was full of energy, the songs, the dance and the act. Wow! Hilarious and simply amazing, catch it while its around. Especially the lead female actress, beautiful voice, very clear and pure. The cast sing and dance with energy, and love the story line even tho its a typical romance cum family storyline with lots of twist. Hahaaa... grand finale, saw the audience were on their feet dancing away to the music of ABBA. LoLz.. will i watch again if i have a chance? definitely.. YES!!!

Great seats, great show. A musical that i never forget!
Thank you for the music!

alumni band

finally! its starting... alumni band i mean. LoLz.. first practice today, turn out not very good, but size today was good enough to make some music. sight read songs today, letting the very senior players i mean really senior get their playing rite.. haha..they have not been playing for years. but still the band has a decent tone, well, that's the result of years of training under our teacher, Miss Tan. lots of things are lined up for the alumni band. going to be interesting...!! release more detail about it when things are nearer..

near perfect

weekend has passed, and it was a interesting one. well... it all started out on friday afternoon. Dreads, sitting in EP for 2 hours listening to 9 groups of presentation where 8 of them covered on the same photographer. ouch! my ear hurts.. by the end of the lesson, the history of the photographer is drilled into my head. Lolz... Basically after that went down to queensway shopping centre with joel, both of us shopping for a backpack, and i am also looking for a camping bag, saw a few but still undecided yet. passing by clarke quay on the way to town, we remember that there is a music shop there, selling instruments, so decided to get off and visit the shop, but its close, went back later in the evening, wow... i am stunned by the large amount of instruments, new and old. Negotiating for my french horn, Holten of course, think i will get it soon. anyway, joel and i play around with the instruments, and the shop owner doesn't seem to care.. hahaa.. think he trust us in handling the instruments, we are musicians. fun fun.. going back there some time soon.

Saturday, OOP walkthrough, also OOP dateline, well i didn't manage to complete the assignment, there is still some errors in the coding but can't solve the error, programming is really not my forte. oh well, think i should be able to pass. God Bless. Band was rather "interesting", i am suffering from headache due to lack of sleep and the trumpets were screaming into my ears throughout the practice, ouch! Became the tuner of the section, LoLz, Mr Tan was using me to tune the other horns. following that, went to music essential to hunt for scores, manage to find the beethoven sonata which was played by one of the masterclass student. happenly, it was one of my grade8 horn piece, so i bought it. oh yah, i decided to take grade 8 for french horn next year. Eager to try out. LoLz. Wish me luck.

Sunday, stayed at home, didn't want to go to church, and also decided not to go clarke quay to test out the horn. jus want to stay at home. evening went to my grandparents's place to collect my medicine, had dinner there and went home. I should say, ever since my uncle, Ben Tan and family left to korea, weekends at pasir ris is rather cold. my uncles n family seldom go there now. when i was there, uncle patrick when to pick up food for his family and gave me a ride home. i didn't stay there for more than an hour. Miss those days where everyone was there, makes the weekends a lively place to be with all the small kids around. things are not going to be the same...

Today, piano lesson, was late again, 2nd time in a row. Well, did jazz again and the third piece for my piano grade 8 exams. fun fun fun. except got irritated by this primary school kid on the way there, rudeness rule his mind, it seems kids of the same race are like that, i am not being racist. more like its a cultural thing. had supper with joel and happen to saw jefferson at Bt Panjang plaza. chat while eating and now sitting here blogging away. oh! and i didn't go to school today.

masterclass

attended horn masterclass yesterday. basically, nothing to much to comment about the masterclass. Barry Tuckwell focus more on the perfomance aspect of playing the horn. Certainly he went into details of the concerto's and sonata's played by the 3 hornist. Its something like what goes on every piano lesson now where my piano teacher will sit beside me and go into detail bar by bar of my exam pieces. other than that, learned nothing much, mostly were taught by Miss Tan during secondary school days, more or less a refresher course for me. Was hoping that tuckwell will go into technical aspect of playing but didn't. He mention is a One to One thing, what works well on one player might not work well on the others. which is one point i could agree on. but at least a little something general on horn playing pls... haha! lesson over.

one thing about this masterclass, i was paying much attention to the pianist other than the horn. LoLz.. the pianist is good.. very good. haha! gotta prac on my piano more, technic is getting no where now, lack of time to practice. But i like one thing, is the 2 jazz piece i have to work on now. like jazz alot, but still J.S Bach and Beethoven are my favourites. why work on jazz? well, my piano teacher mention of jazz gaining popularity in sight reading, so she is preparing me for it which i don't think i have much of a problem handling it. haha!

Exhausted

Geezz..... i am so tired. did my PQS test today, already expected the results, don't think i will do good, what to do, last minute studies. don't really bother about it anyway, haha.. for EP(Exploring Photography) did my presentation today, haiz, stupid bald head, put words in my mouth, accussing me of things i didn't say during the presentation. anyway, he is quite a nice guy i think, jus that time to time he jus irritates me. urgh! FMS tutors..

did something crazy after class. met up with eddie, killing time with him so we walk from NP to Apple Centre at bukit timah road. about 4 km walk for a return trip. and my legs are aching now. ouch! haven't done such a long distance walk. the longest i did was from tanjong pagar to orchard. LoLz...

anyway, i am so tired now, don't think i will touch on my assignment today, that's make it 2 days in a row i didn't do and the clock is ticking. tick tick tick! off to sleep, tomorrow is a new day!

sleepy...

Eeeeks!!! still scrolling thru PQS notes, last minute studies as usual. PQS? Productivity and Quality studies lor. boring module, literally rot thru every single lesson. why? coz i am alone from my class.. haiz, all thanks to my friends playing me out. anyway, test is few hours away, and still.. i going thru the notes...

oh oh oh... interesting thing to note, i am assign Project leader for Valentine's day for ICT. Wow.. how interesting that can be. scratching head over what i am going to do then. scratch scratch scratch. anyway, will update time to time about how things are going. Buying flowers or chocs from me? hahaa....

off to bed. Sayonara!

take aim.... fire!

Wooooohhh!!!! check it out, i fired a M-16 rifle! hahahaha.... exciting it was, and a experience that i never forget. 3 out of 5 rounds hit the target. not bad for a starter, will shoot more when i get enlisted into army. hahaaa... i missed the first 2 as i am trying to concentrate and get used to firing amid the loud sound of explosion around me. Didn't know that the sound of a rifle being fired could really throw my head off. well... its someone beside me fired his rifle and the explosive sound pushed my head off the rifle. how is it being done? Soundwaves of course. While i triggered the third round, no bullet came out, something's wrong with the rifle. the safety officer took charge and pass the magazine (container of bullets) to another officer which allow me to finish off my remaining 3 rounds. took aim again, and woah la! all 3 hit the target. Nice........ (FYI: All rounds are blanks!)

Results from firing: Me - 3 rounds
Father - 2 rounds
Brother - 1 rounds

Definitely made the right choice to tag along with my family to the army open house. too bad didn't get to see the display of firepower by the armour vehicles, next year i guess. And if possible i would like to try night firing. Sure looks cool with the tracer rounds. Okie, falling out! Keluar Baris... tata!!!

fireworks

WoooooW...... viewing fireworks from the comfort of my own bed. haha... lookin out towards chinese garden, they are launching the lantern festival thinggys.. so they had fireworks. always a treat to view it every year. hahahaha.... that's why i really like my room soooooooooo.... much! what a view... phew!!!

music and computers

sometimes i really wonder, what is the quality of a true musician? is it someone that committe themselves to the only instrument throughout their playing years or one that change their instrument as and when they like.

anyway, i think my desktop PC has come to the end of its life cycle. haiz... i am sitting beside it for the past 50 mins just trying to get it boot up. either the PC beeps indicating that there is no signal from the monitor, or it just hang while booting up. think i am going to backup all my data in there the moment its ready for use. check out the new iMac . Drools.... another of my dream machine and another creation from the fruit! hahaaa.... oh well... how i wish i can have that!

Jus another day..

things are really down this month. don't what is the reason behind it. as what joel had told me just now when i met him to pass him some stuffs. my desktop, keep on hanging, urgh!!! gotta get a new system soon, why? coz the current system is so old, maybe change the harddisk. might as well..... get a new system! Dad? Mum? can i? hahaa...

oh.. today, really rot in school. firstly attended lecture, the first thing of the day, 2 hours of it, and only one of my class guys whom i usually hang out with in school turned up. well actually there is two la, but the other accompany his girl. had lunch after that, really wonder at that time where had all the utensils gone to? i could hardly find a fork at the canteen. Geez..!! well. after we ate, there is still lots of time left! what the hell.... anyway, rot all the way till 2 before the next lesson starts. class is really getting boring these days, the W01 spirit is really slowly disappearing away. haiz.... miss those days where we really crap around all day, all week. =)

Woooo... looking at some of the photograph taken by my friends, its really artistic, oh..... i want to get myself a camera, not that i don't have any, i mean a real professional one to click click click. hehee.... Photography has always been my interest.

Click Click Click! =D

3... 2... 1...

with the upcoming formation of my alumni band, the total count of band i will be in is 3. Spread over 2 days and there is only 1 me! am i ready to commit myself to all three band or will i have to sacrifice one. looks like i really have to reconsider things again.

oh yah, this decision was prompted by the arrival of a new assistant conductor in NP. pretty cool stuff, something for a change, a better and more refined band i hope? or its just the np band that i will forever know. heard he is one of the SAF Band directors. Band A or Band B? well, gonna find out soon.. Definitely not from Band C. oh well... i just wish the standard of music will become higher and of course, not just with a new conductor, but also better concept of music from the band.

Music is my life...