music and computers

sometimes i really wonder, what is the quality of a true musician? is it someone that committe themselves to the only instrument throughout their playing years or one that change their instrument as and when they like.

anyway, i think my desktop PC has come to the end of its life cycle. haiz... i am sitting beside it for the past 50 mins just trying to get it boot up. either the PC beeps indicating that there is no signal from the monitor, or it just hang while booting up. think i am going to backup all my data in there the moment its ready for use. check out the new iMac . Drools.... another of my dream machine and another creation from the fruit! hahaaa.... oh well... how i wish i can have that!

Jus another day..

things are really down this month. don't what is the reason behind it. as what joel had told me just now when i met him to pass him some stuffs. my desktop, keep on hanging, urgh!!! gotta get a new system soon, why? coz the current system is so old, maybe change the harddisk. might as well..... get a new system! Dad? Mum? can i? hahaa...

oh.. today, really rot in school. firstly attended lecture, the first thing of the day, 2 hours of it, and only one of my class guys whom i usually hang out with in school turned up. well actually there is two la, but the other accompany his girl. had lunch after that, really wonder at that time where had all the utensils gone to? i could hardly find a fork at the canteen. Geez..!! well. after we ate, there is still lots of time left! what the hell.... anyway, rot all the way till 2 before the next lesson starts. class is really getting boring these days, the W01 spirit is really slowly disappearing away. haiz.... miss those days where we really crap around all day, all week. =)

Woooo... looking at some of the photograph taken by my friends, its really artistic, oh..... i want to get myself a camera, not that i don't have any, i mean a real professional one to click click click. hehee.... Photography has always been my interest.

Click Click Click! =D

3... 2... 1...

with the upcoming formation of my alumni band, the total count of band i will be in is 3. Spread over 2 days and there is only 1 me! am i ready to commit myself to all three band or will i have to sacrifice one. looks like i really have to reconsider things again.

oh yah, this decision was prompted by the arrival of a new assistant conductor in NP. pretty cool stuff, something for a change, a better and more refined band i hope? or its just the np band that i will forever know. heard he is one of the SAF Band directors. Band A or Band B? well, gonna find out soon.. Definitely not from Band C. oh well... i just wish the standard of music will become higher and of course, not just with a new conductor, but also better concept of music from the band.

Music is my life...

four walls

finally... common test is over. phew! personally i feel that i didn't do that well this time round. rather distracted tho.. don't know over what. but somehow, just distracted. haiz.... just looking for some directions now just to keep me moving, but where is the direction signs?

i am just sitting in my room staring at the four walls every day and night, any life? Nope! everything just come to a halt. =( oh wells... happy go lucky attitudes seems to be playing hide and seek with me now, where are u???

updates

this past week have been very packed with things.

Monday- the week by doing revision class for the freshies. i feel that i could have done better during my "lecture" by doing some preparation before and try to speak slower. haiz... didn't realise i can speak so fast. anyways, same day i went to arts friend to get my materials for the farewell dinner and waited for eddie at chinatown for almost an hour before i can go and get my cloth for the banner.

Tuesday - morning have make up class for OOP and afternoon went down to chevrons with siti, annette(my assistant) & rebecca to make final confirmation of the farewell dinner. returned back to school later to start on my banner. didn't manage to complete it tho...

Wednesday - return back to school to do the banner again, annette got to leave early so she helped out as much as she could. didn't want to hold her back, family matters cropped up i suppose. the banner was completed, so a great relieve. Yippe!!

Thursday - Oral exam, i think i didn't did that bad but its good enough to get a pass? oh well. wat's done is done. went out to R&R with eddie, to stress up this week.

Friday - Popped by at shuqun to pass yizhi winXP cd, her comp broke down as usual. sit in at band prac for a while before i had to zoom off to chevrons for the farewell dinner. Weather is bad, it rain and rain non-stop today. was actually hoping that it could stop around afternoon but it didn't so no poolside for the dinner but the function room. Logistic head and me had a difficult time putting up the banner in the room, could not actually tie the banner up so we had to stick it up but the tape provided by chevrons is not sticky enough, end up we had to paste the banner with a awfully ugly black border. urgh! otherwise it could be perfect. the dinner went on smoothly and had a fun night as others do..!

Saturday - early morning went to shuqun for a alumni band meeting with the principal. regarding the setting up of the alumni band, finally something is happening. Wow! oh well.. see how things go from here. catch up with yaying, vivien, tanny and any other people today.. haha!!

Post up every single thing that happen this week so that explain the long post.. hehe! common test is here... well.. gotta hit the books.

pissed..

urgh!! SWO, bloody hell, ask me to return the horn and i got another horn, which is a lousy brand.. urgh! i am now so determine to buy my own horn now! gonna use my horn from NP band that means i gotta lug it with the heavy wooden case around. oh well... that's the price to pay if you want to use a better horn. oOooo.. i love horns..!

anyway, i think i am stressed up that i am getting hot tempered recently. hope no one gets offended when i scream or yell at them out of no reason. i am just stressed up.

Flabbergasted

missed NP band prac today, and went to attend band concert at the Esplanade. Was assigned seats behind the band which is also known as the gallery. First thoughts, it looks like one of the worst seats in the hall, but after all.. not so bad. Could really hear the horns clearly.

Didn't know how high is Thailand's band standard, but could clearly hear that the horns played as one powerful section. It is one of the best i hear so far. Wonder if my horn section could be like them?? Would love to play with thai band's horn section. Beautiful tone too! It really melt my heart when i hear them play either as a soloist or as a section. Gosh! Think they are the target that i am going to set for myself. Gotta prac hard Nic!!!

Don't why, but i would envy how overseas band play, they have never fail to impress me from the amature to the professionals. I am just flabbergasted today...

national day

its national day, not a very significant day for me, but its one for the nation. oh wells.. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY guys out there! been fighting with some virus these few days, think i caught it from my class. Been studying in a class infested with virus. Urgh!!! but on the road to recovery now...

Great news, my maid who went back last yr, is expecting! 5 months i heard. got the news from my grandparents today when i was there today fixing my aunts computer. anyway, congrats to her... wish to visit her sometime soon. most probably after the arrival of the baby. =D so can play with him/her. LoLz.. alright post again sometime soon... chaos!!!

mixed feelings

Recieved great news from ICT society's annual general meeting a.k.a AGM today. Firstly, many congrats to those who have gotten themselves into the society either in Main Comm or Sub Comm. For me, yes, i manage to get into main comm of the society, it is a surprise to me. Will be looking forward to an exciting year with everyone. And i will take on the challenge of being a main comm and be up to task!

Rather mixed feelings these days tho.. perhaps i am too worn out that i wish to drop everything and just take a break or perhaps its just over a few small matters, don't know why but.. Haizz. Hopefully my friends that are troubled with matters of the heart can get over it and be cheerful as they are again. My ears are always open to problems...

Attitude

My post carries on from the the one yesterday. I really can't believe how ugly can Singapore get, squeezing and pushing people around just to get into esplanade itself. I nearly tripped and fell a few times by these people. Oh well... Its Singapore for god's sake.

Okay I'm getting very irritated by someone's attitude and I don't why that person has turn into what she is today. It is very annoying when you hardly have a chat with someone which you don't always see everyday and ends up in a quarrel during the conversation. On top of that, I am the one that is been accused of starting the quarrel when I didn't even have the intention too. I am not that is so mean and free to start a quarrel with anyone, even if I want to why must it be her? I could simply do it with my classmates or my buddies. Seeing more lights as the story unfolds itself on how my relationship with someone fails.. Terribly!

Meet up with Joel after piano lesson last night to talk about it, i emailed my thoughts to my 2 buddies and let them judge for themselves. Joel asked me a very good question "How did i manage to put up with her?" Well, I just don't know.. Perhaps its just my character.

This matter annoys me the whole of yesterday and still does today. I getting a little hot-tempered these two days over this issue, and i really wish i could just calm down and live life as usual.

iTs over!!!

Yeah yeah... Finally PnC is over, totally overjoyed by it because now i can take a long good rest after a busy month. Yieepy!!! My thoughts from PnC, is not as enjoyable as SWO concert in terms of musicality and stuffs... but still its still fun to play in this concert because of all the fun people we have in NPCB.

Most of the time during the concert, the band is not playing according to the conductor's tempo, so there is some point in time during the concert where the band nearly broke down, but good thing is that the band is able to play together even without the conductor's direction. I was very dishearten to hear Noah's Ark during the rehearsal that same afternoon, i got quite furious with the band playing but there is nothing much i could do about it. But kudos to the horns, we played well! LoLz....

After concert, a group of us when to Jalan Kayu for prata, it was around 1 am in the morning and i am dead tired, and the service at the prata shop is so poor. we had to wait and wait for just one pathetic piece of prata. oh wells.. spend the night at andrew's house, my gosh, what a beautiful toilet he have.. not much place to step on.

Got home the next afternoon, suppose to go to SWO for a lunch but too tired to go. Catch up with SWO ppl the next time round. Stepped home not more than an hour and i was out again for dinner with my family at Tony Romas's(think got spelling error) and they dragged me down to esplanade waterfront to catch the fireworks. Damn sleepy and fell asleep while waiting. But its a beautiful display of fireworks i must say..

Juz another day

Great news over the weekend, finally i made it into ICT Society Main Committee selection, Yeah!! Juz finish my individual interview today, well.. i don't think i performed well during the interview, but again, i left the interview with no regrets at all, if i don't make it for main comm, then it alright to remain as a Sub comm member. Still have not design my poster of myself, gotta publicise myself... *grins. Voting will be on 3 Aug.

A big surprise today, i recieve an SMS from my PRIMARY schoolmate which i have lost contact for a few years this morning. Exchange a few SMS, catching up with each other, hopefully will be able have a gathering some time. =D

Also attended a seminar on Microsoft latest softwares at LT 26. Overall its quite interesting as you will get first hand info on the next MS Operating System, .Net software and other stuffs. By chance won myself a set of Visual Studios 2003 .Net software, sure come in handy sometime even tho i have already installed one copy into my lappy.

PnC coming soon... yeah!! after that i will not be as busy as before and have more time to relax and concentrate on my studies... Other than that, had an enjoyable weekend.

SWO Concert

Feels great to be back at VCH again! Concert is a major success since my last concert at VCH more than a year ago. But its one of the best i ever had, in terms of musicality, repertoire, and section mates. 4 guys only! Smallest horn section i ever been in. Totally enjoyed it alot!! Yippe! Will be back for more! And yes! my horn solo went well even tho is a short solo, totally proud of myself!
 
Many thanks to Pee, Amanda and the other NP members that came to this concert.  Also thanks to RS horns for the flowers, caught me by surprise! But its very sweet of you, even tho i barely know you all. Hopefully you guys will be motivated to play the horn after listening to us. Okie, 2 weeks break for SWO. will be back on the third week from now for a lunch i suppose? See you guys soon! Time to focus on NP concert. Phew...

School... Band... And... Concerts...

Running busy schedules lately, too busy until burning out soon but still... got to last until the end of the month which is the date for my second concert in a month. Never tried to run such a schedule before.. Phew...

SWO concert coming in a 2 day's time, pray to god that everything will run smoothly for me and the band! Amen! haha..! NP? still have about another 2 weeks to go...

I think its time for me to start focusing in class already, still pretty much blur what is going on in class. ahaha! 3 weeks into the semester and i just bought my first textbook, with another one not yet purchased. Okie.. time to hit the books!

3D0

3 Day orientation Camp

This is one camp that i least enjoyed thru my years of camping. Not because of the insect bites i have from the residents of sentosa, but its the organisers and the way they run the camp.

First day of camp, i reported late as i have overslept. But its okay because there are activities going on that morning which does not require logistics team which i am in to do any thing. I am one of the two that was left behind to help out that morning. The rest of the team have already gone to sentosa on day zero. Basically, done nothing much on the first day except helping out games and looking after the campsite while all the campers went out for nite walk. The day ends at 2.30am for me.

Second day, woke up at 6.30am. 4 hours of sleep only and it rain at night. Freezing in my sleep, but thanks to bernard who threw his hammock on my feet. kept me slightly warm. Started the day with making a large tub of milo for campers. Never done it at such a large scale. LoLz...!! Followed by distributing breakfast and some packing up at the logistic area. Packing of water bomb comes next and we packed about thousand over water bombs over a period of 8 hours. Meanwhile packing, also delivered lunch to a game station situated at the ferry terminal. Took a monorail there and back to the beach. At least some sight-seeing at last. Upon returning to the campsite, logistic team started to transport firewood to the campfire site and setting up campfire situated at least 1km away from the campsite. Walked up and down the route for at least 6 times. Able to catch some winks before clearing away lunch and distributing dinner to campers. Just before campfire starting, decided to leave the camp to head home. Totally worn out by then. 14 hours of non stop work.

Opening of a new chapter!

A new semester has arrived..! yeepy! Year 2 in Ngee Ann Poly already!

after a long yet fruitful holiday the new semester has started with a huge satisfaction. Weeks of planning for today's orientation for the new year 1s has finally paid off. Seeing those freshies enjoying themselves while playing the games organised.

Looking forward to be with my classmates again, doing all those stuffs that we usually do. Didn't get to hang around much with them, only during lunch break. But its back to normal routine tommorrow onwards.

Band Camp & Fever

4 Days of band Camp and i was gone on the first day.

Day 1: Arrived at band room almost an hour late, feeling a little unwell, in fact started to cough the night before when i went to see harry potter. Picked up the horn and started playing. My condition got worse when during lunch, the sight of the packed lunch made me wanting to puke, but still i try my best to eat, but haiz.. just can't eat! by the advice of my section member, Amanda, i stop and had gone on an empty stomach throughout the afternoon. Tried to play after lunch, but just couldn't, no strength at all.. so i decided to stop for the day, meanwhile my condition just get worse. till helped the librarians with packing scores, i start to feel horrible. I then decided to go home, hoping to return back the next day. Took a cabby home.

At home, lay down and start to feel feverish, took my temp and indeed i was offically down with fever. Send an SOS msg to my mom. Before going to see a doctor, i took my temp again and this time round i was burning! my eyes were all red and i looked horrible. Geez!

Day 2: Morning and i am still burning going even higher, 40 deg! Could hardly have the strength to move. Took a quick cold shower, trying my best to bring it down. But the fever just burn and burn. Sleep most of the day. At night again i took another shower, but this time, i nearly passed out in the bathroom. Before i totally passed out, i dash out and lay down on the bed. Phew! never faint before and this is a close call.

Day 3 & 4: Basically this 2 days, fever still there n fluctuating but just spend the time bring it down.

Well! That's how i spend my very first band camp in NP away from NP! ahahaha.... Recovering now! Thanks for concern guys!

Respect is Earn not Gain

After so many years, have my parents understand what i have grown to become? Speaking about respect, it finally comes to light that my idiotic father has no idea what is respect. To him, respect is something that everyone has to give him without any particular reasons. But after being a student leader and have experience in teaching students, I was taught that respect is something that you have to earn!

Yes, i have to admit that i give lots of respect to my elders, especially my parents. But have they ever give any respect to me as their son? As i am sitting infront of the computer posting up this blog, I am very heart broken. As I think about this family, it makes me more determine to leave this house or country when i am ready to. I feel that i could no longer take this kind of rubbish from this family any longer. It just emotionally and physically draining for me.

Living in this house its like standing in the middle of a mine field, any single wrong move, the mines will just explode. Guess, by not causing any bomb to blow, its just pure luck. Engage in a conversation, its just like defusing the mine. This is how i live day by day.

Geez....

Geez... Other than slacking around as its holidays now, been having a lot of band practice and practicing on horn and piano a lot. But but but... Still need more practice on the higher registers for horn and need to run to build up my STAMINA!!! Geez.. Been breathless quite often when playing. Anyway, NP band concert is confirm to be on 31th July.

Just a few days ago, attended a talk by Adam Khoo, a famous motivational speaker, after sitting thru, I felt that its no much of a difference compared to other motivational speakers. And anyway, got to find out that my brother is attending one of the program conducted by him. Geez.. It cost a bomb. Don't know whether it will have any effect on my brother to help him improve his studies.

For my dental, I have to remove my wisdom tooth, very reluctant to do so. But just could not escape the clutches of the dentist hands. And going to see a doc for my face, told my parents regarding the cost and they look very reluctant to pay after enrolling my brother to the program. Perhaps, putting on braces may not be a good idea thou.. I would rather treat my face first then my teeth or maybe don't put on so I won't be suffering in silence when playing in band. I don't know, what's done is done.

Oh yah! Before I forget, my results are out tml. Hope my results are not that bad. God Bless...

sUrPrIsE sUrPrIsE!

again, i am making another post in a day. almost forgot to add in my first posting, that it is 9th May and its mother's day! so HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers out there! so my whole family when out for dinner, and to my suprise as the title goes, its my grandparent's 50TH wedding annivasary. Golden Jubilee! Geezzz.. will my marriage last 50 years? hmm.... well, that's all i want to add tonight! bye guys!!!